Looking for God

 

Hi.

I speak to many from Word press from Australia (I learnt World of War craft, lol) The USA, Canada, South Africa, India, people from Europe, South America (Some are a struggle with my accent) and a few from the UK as well, I would like to say hi to you all, and thank you for just “Being there” thank you for replies, emails and speaking on Skype and more. I got put up for two awards today. I have no idea why, I don’t think I am a great writer. I express what I need and say what is on my mind, I also do Audio blogs so people REALLY have to concentrate on my accent, I like to goof around, but hey, we can laugh right?

The naming of this blog needs no explaining whatsoever. It is me and my walking the path in search of God. It is a lonely path sometimes, but many I could mention here have spoken to me about it, and not one has preached, just given me advice. Also I have a family member or two I can speak with

So I believe in God, I try and live my best by the 10 commandments I pray every night before bed, just a few words, but just thanking God for blessing me with such a good life. I said this to a friend and they said “But you are in pain all day with Disability” My reply was “But I am still blessed” I think they left confused, lol

Looking for God for me is a journey, and I guess many of us are on the same journey or a similar journey, or maybe have God in their Hearts and ask question about their faith, I am speculating here. God comes in many shapes and forms and books, and this is where I get lost in translation. What Bible do I read? What God do I believe in? What church would I go to? And many more questions. And many say “Just have God in your heart, have a relationship, live by the 10 commandments, and if this is your way, this is your way” But then some will say “You will still go to Hell” If this is true, I think at the back of my mind “This is an unfair, unjust God” I am spending my days living by his will, and speaking to him, and it all may be in vain. This is the part I need guidance with, if anyone wants to reply below, PLEASE! Do, as I said above it can be a lonely walk. But something I love is this; I will show you in picture

Footprints in the sand

I must have been 25 years old at my Aunts funeral, and her best friend read this out, and it just TOUCHED A PART OF MY BEING and I just cried and cried. I did something to me, I believed it, and it made so much sense to me, even till this day

I will tell a quick story, and I shared this story with a few close friends. I am afraid to fly on Airplanes, badly, and about 10 years ago, not long after my Aunt had passed, and I was thinking about God my two sons who were 10 and 8 years old at the time were going on a big plane for a two week Holiday in Portugal with my partners parents, Grandma and Granddad, who I trust my sons lives with. But my fear of flying, I have never did it, was starting to effect my thinking and I worried heavily about my sons safety. As any parent in any given situation or similar situation or just worry, it’s what parents do. My Father is 67 and still worries about me and my two older sisters and big brother. Anyway, I took the dog out, and I was standing against a small tree and I could see the entire sky as I was high up on Arthur Seat in Edinburgh where I live, and I said in my mind “God if you can hear me, please look after my two sons” Then I opened my eyes, and I looked at the sky, a big sky, but right at the small part I looked 2 shootings starts whizzed past in a second, and I gasped. Was this a sign, or was this coincidence? I think looking back it was a sign.

They arrived home two weeks later, I went to the chapel, or small church room in the Airport, and just said “Thank you God” and left. Here I am all these years later, and some say “If that sign wasn’t enough, then nothing will be” And I guess I can see their point. But to give my life to God I need more. And please, I mean no disrespect to ANYONE who is God Loving or God Fearing, I just need more. Do I blindly follow? Or do I need another sign? I could say meeting Reverend Eddie Tatro and  leprechaun0317 and many more on here are good signs, as both have taken time to speak to me, none more so that my good friend Reverend Eddie Tatro from the USA

So my quest continues, and my path I still walk. I just needed to share this. As it was bugging me out a little that I can’t connect the dots. I hope people understand what this blog is about and realise I mean no harm or foul. I love God. I just am confused in what way to connect with God. Is what I am doing enough? As it feels enough.

But I will keep looking and walking and with your help, maybe I may get closer, or not

Thanks for allowing me to share.

 

God Bless

Shaun

Shauny1973@hotmail.com

Skype Name: ShaunGibson1888

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